Thursday, 14 November 2024

Finding oneself in times of uncertainty and strife: an existential journey

 

           Finding oneself in times of uncertainty and strife: an existential journey

                                                First published in the Carmel Beat, in January, 2021

 What is happening? What is going to happen? Why do we exist? Who am I, anyway? These are questions that all of us have, and have had since time immemorial. These questions are on the tips of our tongues or hovering ominously above our heads, whether we choose to ask them or not, in every situation we are in. Whether in the context of our careers or our values or relationships, we have several times just sat back and questioned the futility of it all- what is the point of everything, if I’m just going to die one day?

These are existential questions, and we all have them.

As you may have guessed by now, if you don’t already know, existentialism or existential philosophy is a form of inquiry that examines human existence and emphasizes the existence of the individual person as responsible for their own development through free will. Ultimately the idea of existentialism is to understand the purpose of being and how you make your choices and decisions and move ahead with them.  

Existentialism, as a movement, emerged in the late 19th century to mid-20th century in the time of the Second World War. The horrific consequences of the war and its aftermath led people to ponder the meaning of life and question the purpose of existence.

But is this mode of thinking relevant to us now, at a time of such crisis in the world?

“Existentialist philosophy is always relevant, more so in times of crisis. Purely because the philosophy emerged when there was such a state of flux in the world,” says Ms. Sheryl Puthur, Assistant Professor from the Department of English, Mount Carmel College. “We needed to rethink how we understood ourselves, our purpose in life, our meaning.”

As Hamlet said in William Shakespeare’s play of the same name said: “To be or not to be, that is the question.” Here he is asking the primary existential questions- why do we exist and what is the purpose of life? Hamlet, in this part of the play, has just lost his father, the King of Denmark; lost his throne and his mother’s love to his uncle Claudius; and finds himself in a position where his very purpose in life has lost its foundation.

It is a time of crisis for Hamlet, and that is what leads him to the question he asks. For us, this is particularly significant because we find that we experience existential crises when in desperate or urgent situations, just like Hamlet did.  

But what is existentialism to you and me? What has it got to do with our identity, with how we see ourselves? The answer is- everything.

Existentialism gives us the space to question every single thing around us and in us. Existential thinker and writer Jean-Paul Sartre believed that you shouldn't be limited by the idea laid out for you, that you should have the ultimate freedom of choice. Sartre did not believe in the idea of fate or that there is a pre-existing path in life for each of us to follow, and that it is up to us to carve that path.

But during a pandemic or any other difficult situation, this does seem very hard to do. Even if one is in the habit of examining the existential nature of everything around one on a regular basis; the uncertainty, the feeling of helplessness and the prospect of death hovering in the side-lines brings one to the point of despair. We begin to question our own mortality, our place in the world we belong in and the nature of that world. Above all, we question our identity.  

Anton Chekov’s belief that “ the world is, of course, nothing but our conception of it,” brings up the idea that everything is a construct, including but not limited to our identity as well, and this idea is disconcerting to more than just a few of us.

“The word existentialism gets a lot of bad press because people connect or compare it to nihilism and see it as some kind of emptying philosophy. I think we should look at it as a positive concept, purely because if you go back to Sartre’s idea -existence precedes essence- what it implies is that you exist as a person even prior to you being given an identity or a purpose,” says Ms Sheryl. “It is not given to you, you make it yourself. This makes more sense in a time like this, in the middle of a pandemic, where people have found their previous ideas of themselves, of self, of identity, coming under question.”

Therefore, a viewpoint like existentialism becomes all the more relevant because it tells you that you can reinvent yourself. It tells you that there is no fixed identity to you. You are the one who gets to decide how you construct your identity.

But when it comes to looking at our identity, in a pandemic, or in times of any kind of uncertainty, perhaps the real question is: what is this uncertainty and why does it disconcert us so much?

We all dislike it when we slip into any state of uncertainty, when we are uncertain about what the future holds for us, or what our careers are going to look like. But as existentialists ask, when were we ever certain, not only of such life changing phases in our lives, but of anything?

It is disconcerting for us because a crisis or a time of uncertainty, however big or small, suddenly does not have any structure, meaning, and all that we have come to depend on as definite suddenly is not definite any more. Therefore, existentialism is perhaps our awareness that the world is not as definite as we know it, and that the world as Chekov suggested, is what we make it.

But being in a state of crisis, in a state that has no discernible structure or meaning can cause in us a great deal of anxiety. Contradictorily, this idea of suddenly having too much control, of suddenly being able to construct our own world and identity can also give us a great deal of anxiety.

Perhaps it is this duality and this ambiguity as to what a crisis is and what it is not, that disconcerts us.

“From the very beginning, existentialism defined itself as a philosophy of ambiguity.”
― Simone de Beauvoir, The Ethics of Ambiguity

But the scope that existential philosophy provides one with, for reinventing one’s own identity is tremendous. 

Existential philosophers and writers Sartre and Søren Kierkegaard wrote extensively on the idea of subjective or relative truth. Everyone looks at their own truth and you as an individual will create your own sense of truth​, based on the framework you create about the world around you.

Though existentialist thought appears to be a perpetual state of questioning and of introspection, perhaps, as it is relevant in every era and in our changing society, existentialism reflects personal growth and the journey of one’s identity. This is especially significant because in every crisis, minor or major, growth is what we look to and identity is what we hang on to, and existentialism allows and urges us to explore both.

 

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